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My response to Kezia Dugdale . . .

. . . who sent me an email saying why she thinks Scotland should stay in an abusive relationship.

To whoever reads email replies to Kezia’s “Better Together” email,

Everything changed when we were told we were being dragging out of the EU because of England and Wales. I’m a person of colour. I was assaulted three days after the EU referendum thanks to the result. It made all the racist scum think that 52% of the population agreed with them so they started attacking people like me. The attack has left me traumatised and completely terrified of this Brexit process and my attacker is still out there. It’s only going to get worse with the Tories completely in charge and the opposition so ineffectual. I’m so scared and the only people who actually seem to care are the SNP. My SNP MP has bent over backwards to help me which is more than Labour have ever done. I welcome an independent Scotland and the chance of staying in or rejoining the EU. I feel safer with SNP and EU rhetoric than with Westminster.

Yours terrifiedly,

Me

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To Theresa May

Via a Rethink Mental Illness campaign. The bit in italics is my addition. Yes, I did send it.

Dear Prime Minister,

Why do you hate mentally ill people like myself? Are you doing this to push many of us over the edge so that we won’t be such a burden on hard-working taxpayers? I used to think that sort of belief was paranoia but I’m not so sure any more. You’ll never know how terrifying that is. Believing your own government hates you so much that they’re actively reducing your support in order to encourage you to kill yourself. I guess this is what passes for Compassionate Conservativism.

I am writing to ask you to reverse the changes to Personal Independence Payment (PIP) regulations, which came into force last week.

I am deeply concerned that these changes undermine two recent Upper Tribunal rulings, which would have broadened the reach of PIP. This will prevent people with mental health conditions from accessing financial support to carry out daily tasks such as planning and making a journey – potentially risking isolation.

This is in stark contrast to your Government’s welcome commitment to delivering parity of esteem between physical and mental health.

Please will you reconsider, so that people with mental health conditions have access to the same vital financial support as those with physical disabilities?

Yours sincerely,

Me

TW: Mental illness and suicidal thoughts

“Disability benefits should go to “really disabled people” not those “taking pills at home, who suffer from anxiety”, a key Theresa May aide says.
No 10 policy unit head George Freeman said personal independence payments (PIP) reforms were needed to roll back the “bizarre” decisions of tribunals.”

Disability benefits: PIPs should be for ‘really disabled’

Bizarre. Awarding disability benefits to mentally ill people is “bizarre.”
Acceptable disabilities according to the Tories’ own press release: visual impairment, kidney failure.
Unacceptable disabilities: “psychological distress” meaning anxiety/mental illness.

I don’t think they understand what pathological anxiety actually is. It’s not feeling sick and terrified before an exam. Apparently that’s pretty common and fairly normal. This anxiety is waking up most mornings and feeling so sick to your stomach about, well, when barely awake I’ve no idea what caused it, that you cannot face getting out of bed because you feel like you’re going to die if you try to do anything at all. And actually wishing you hadn’t woken up and had died in your sleep instead. This is me four or five mornings a week. And almost every night. Could be worse. Could be all day, every day. I do get some respite. Not much but some but I generally have to spend that either recovering from the rest of the stuff or fixing all the things that got left behind when I was too ill to do anything and that’s exhausting and makes the anxiety come back with a vengeance . . .

I’ve tried various things to get over it like thinking about my friend’s adorable kids but all that does is make me associate the kids with the anxiety. Every thing else I’ve tried either doesn’t work or makes it worse. I just have to ride it out and hope it will pass before I need to leave the house.

I know I posted the government’s press release on this subject a couple of days ago along with a rant but this aide’s comments needed destroying.

A crabby post about Stephen Crabb

Stephen Crabb our new Welfare secretary replacing Iain Duncan Smith posted this on Facebook two days before his appointment. There was a glaring error in his post. He, like IDS and DWP in so many of their press releases, conflated the Work-Related Activity Group (WRAG) of Employment and Support Allowance (ESA) with people who are Fit For Work. In reality people in the WRAG are considered Unfit For Work but may be able to work in the future with support or treatment or something. Now whether this was deliberate in an attempt to make people agree with the scrapping of the WRAG, which means the loss of £30 a week for many disabled people, or plain ignorance I really don’t know. However I would expect a government minister to have done his homework before posting to Facebook. Unfortunately IDS and the DWP have set such a bad example that I think he’s doomed to repeat all their crappiness.

Anyway, I emailed him about his error. This is what I sent.

“Being in the Work Related Activity Group of ESA is not the same as being able to work. I’m astonished by how many people are unable to understand this. People in the WRAG are currently unable to work but may, with support and/or treatment, be able to work in the future.
Our Citizens Advice Bureau spells it out here unless you think their information is inaccurate. https://www.citizensadvice.org.uk/…/about-the-esa-groups/
I’m in the WRAG despite spending about 70% of my waking hours fighting thoughts of suicide. Right now I really want to through myself under a fast moving vehicle. This has been my life for as long as I can remember. Trying not to act on these urges is exhausting and combined with all my other symptoms makes me an incredibly volatile person in terms of affect and behaviour. Anyone who knows anything about me thinks the idea that I’m “fit for work” is ludicrous. I go from happy to suicidal in the time it takes someone else to frown. And a simple frown can be a trigger.
As for support, I barely get any. I get no treatment. I’m not eligible. Please stop spreading lies about people who are in the WRAG. Writing this email has been so difficult that I need to self harm again.”

He has since edited his post to correct the glaring error. Now if only they could correct that cut. I won’t be holding my breath.

I wish I could kill myself.

Why are Tories giving tax cuts to the rich whilst forcing the poor, sick and disabled into starvation and/or suicide?

Because they consider the likes of me to be a waste of oxygen. I’m meaningless in the grand scheme of things. I’ll never vote for them so why should they care. It’s only bleeding-heart liberals who care about Useless Eaters. The likes of me are not worth supporting in any meaningful way. Vermin don’t deserve enough money to actually live on.

Volunteering time and energy in an attempt to reduce mental illness stigma through an art exhibition is not worthwhile. Volunteering time and energy to provide training to improve mental health services is not worthwhile. Helping out a struggling family with free childcare which might help them stay in work is not worthwhile. Raising money for various charities, when I’m well enough to do so, is not worthwhile. Looking after friends who need help is not worthwhile.

Hmm, when you reduce it to that it really doesn’t look like much. Maybe I should just end my life and save the taxpayer some money. I can’t though as I’m delivering Day 2 of training tomorrow and abandoning them with only half the training just isn’t right.

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